Still no baby...

So today is the day Brynn is exactly 40 weeks. She was measuring 2 days bigger and so today she would be completely baked. However, the doc informed me that because her original due date was July 4th, they are keeping it July 4th. They would only change it if it was at least a week off. So, in that case I technically still have 2 more days til she comes. That is, if she ever comes.

Contractions have been non stop from last night on through all of today so far. They just are very irregular. But they are definitely pretty strong. So I'm hoping they pick up and become more consistent. Is it bad I'm wishing to bring on the pain?

I feel like I have tried almost everything to get her to come, but my body and her are just being stubborn I guess. There has never been a time like now where I wish I could turn off the oven and say ok, the timer beeped (meaning my belly button popped) and now it's time to take the bun out of the oven. But nope, nature has to take it's own course. The doctor said he can't even induce me til July 11th. So, I'm hoping my body knows what to do to get this baby out! July freakin 11th?? That's 9 days AWAY! AHHH! I can't do it anymore. =(

I guess I should be grateful though. I have not had any complications whatsoever this entire pregnancy. Never got sick. Never had any crazy cravings, swelled a bit, but I guess it's not something so horrible to complain about and I have been feeling great the whole time. Never had to be put on bed rest, and our daughter looks like she's as healthy as can be. So, I definitely should not be complaining. It's just the fact that I feel like I've been pregnant for a year now. Why is that?...

Because last year in the beginning of July, I found out I was pregnant. We were so excited, but then a miscarriage happened in August. We of course were very sad about it, but knew that Heavenly Father has his reasons and at least we knew that I was able to become pregnant. Then a month in a half later, I found out I was pregnant again. Of course we were very excited again and it's been a fun journey along the way. However, if you counted that up, yep, it's been a year. And feeling HUGE for a year is never fun. So, my patience has kind of worn off now. BUT, I've gotten this far haven't I? I guess I can go another 9 whole days. =(

Anyways, enough of me being so negative. Like I've said before, in the end, it's all worth it. So this next week, I will focus on being patient and enjoying the last little bit of my life with my dear husband before our sweet little girl comes into our family. Even though I know our lives will be TEN times better with her in it. But I always say, Live Life To The Fullest. =) Every moment is a memory...